Wake Me Up When September Ends

September 2009 in review.
Events in the month of September in the life of T_____.
How I want to end this month and start with October (the cold weather), those days have been days of tribulations in my part, I am embattled with myself again, I cannot think of something that have precipitated these chain of events...and now,
I felt it is on my part that I sought to end this, for it is I who have failed,
I have failed myself.

I thought it would be better to sacrifice one to save the many.
And if it should come into this I would gladly accept it.